I don't know if everyone is like this or whether I'm some sort of weirdo, but the fact is that I judge myself quite harshly. I don't forgive myself. It's something that I know is not right. I find myself contemplating the fact that I would never speak to a human being the way that I speak to myself.
...it's how I am.
Today, I read that the woman who falsely accused 14 year old Emmett Till of making improper advances to her died.
Read here: https://www.yahoo.com/news/carolyn-bryant-donham-center-emmett-163317808.html
She was 88.
When she was 72, she admitted that she had fabricated her story.
Read here: https://www.essence.com/news/woman-testified-emmett-till-case-lied/
I sit here in the dark, a woman who doesn't forgive herself for anything, and I wonder about Carolyn Donham. How do you live with a lie like that for 50 years? How do you live with a truth like that for another 16?
I cannot imagine that she had a happy life.
Tim got a call from Lowe's today. They claim the machine that blows in insulation is fixed. I guess we'll find out tomorrow whether or not that's true.
late edit: Nope. The machine was NOT fixed, but we got the job done anyway.
Also, there is an unpublished autobiography of Carolyn Donham. I have enclosed the link: https://newsone.com/4372129/carolyn-bryant-donham-memoir/