Friday, December 16, 2022

Difference

Thanks everyone for your encouraging comments yesterday. It was a very tough night. Words were spoken that probably needed to be spoken much earlier. All I know is that I still had not fallen asleep at 4 AM. I was awake at 6 to get William ready for school. 

What a difference a day makes. 

Yesterday, I was looking forward to my Christmas with all three of my children, their mates and my three grands, everyone under the same roof for the first time in years. A special home cured ham. Grandma Violet's fruit cake. I was lining up the perfect Christmas in my mind. 

Less than 24 hours later, those plans have fallen in. Their were tears and regrets. Oddly none of the tears were mine. I was practical, and assuring everyone that we needed to set all the emotion aside and just focus on the practicalities. We're all in agreement really, but we all wish it could be different. 

It is what it is. I'm sad, but it almost seems easier  now that the decision has been made. 

Tim brought down the tree from the attic a few days back, and fresh from quarantine, William was there helping me decorate the tree. He hung bulbs on it and studied the effect. He said, "It is strange, I just remember this tree as being bigger." 

Handing him an ornament, I said, "Do you think it might be because you've gotten taller?" 

What a difference a year makes. 




17 comments:

  1. My holidays for the past two years have been similar. I don't know your exact circumstances. There were planes that I had bought tickets to fly on (to meet my new grandson) where I didn't get to make the trip. Bitterly disappointing but reality. Take care.

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    1. It's going to be brutally hard for William. He doesn't know that Cara and Colin are stateside. It was meant to be a surprise.

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  2. Life does hand us challenges. I'm so sorry for what you've gone through and are now dealing with. Disappointment is hard to cope with at times. I do know the feeling. I wish I could be with my children too. Sigh...

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  3. I'm glad it's better now that a decision has been made, even though it's hard. The best laid plans of mice and men. I've decided to have Christmas a week early, so we'll do it this Sunday. This way, some friends are able to come as well and my friends are way nicer than some of my family:)

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  4. Glad everyone is staying safe and healthy. Some of this crud, flu and covid can spread so easily. I chuckled that William's tree got smaller. Maybe we should skip holiday planning, and just plan to get together when everyone is well. They we won't feel bummed if holiday plans get changed. Linda in Kansas

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  5. What with the weather and rail strikes, I was beginning to wonder if our Christmas would be put on hold because our kids all live an hour and a half/2 hrs away in different directions.

    I'm sorry that tough decisions have been made in your house, but hope that youwill still have a special day.

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  6. Visiting the farm house where I grew up I was surprised to see that it looked quite small. It never felt small when I lived there. I get William's remark.

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  7. I am not sure what the decision situation is but I am sorry that your plans for a wonderful family get-together have been dashed.
    I hope that they are all well and healthy.

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  8. I Iiked William's observation about the shrinking tree! Sorry your plans have been dramatically changed.

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  9. My guess was wrong. I had assumed that it was something to do with the cat. Sorry about your plans falling through and in.

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    1. Lol. Oh my gosh. Nope. Houdini is in hiding.

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  10. Hopefully there can be future Christmas get togethers to make up for this one. My family will celebrate Christmas alone too this year but I know it is different than you as we still have two kids in the house with us. I will be thinking of you and Tim.

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  11. Christmas can (and often does) bring out the crazy. We're all too stressed and everything becomes magnified. May all settle down and there be some peace and maybe even joy. Maybe?

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    1. Oh this has nothing to do with a family squabble. There is peace. We are all sad that it worked out this way. But we are good, that way, thank heavens.

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  12. My oldest son and I head to Wisconsin today to celebrate with my second oldest son and my oldest 2 grandkids. This Wisconsin son does not want much to do with family gatherings here in Illinois so the two of us go up there as we want to keep in touch with them.
    I "snapchat" and "instagram" with these teenage grandkids - anything to keep in touch! Hoping for a happy day today! :)
    Hope your plans come together.

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  13. I'm sorry the plans fell through. There's always next year, right? Meanwhile, it is what it is. I hope you're able to have a joyous holiday even if it's not quite the one you expected.

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  14. Sometimes after all the rushing around, a peaceful time is what is needed.
    Funny that William had noticed himself growing!!

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