Friday, January 25, 2013

Physically fat

So, after a nice day at work, I headed home. The weather was horrible as it has been for the last 4 days, and I picked my way along very carefully.

I got to my gym and went inside. They tell you that 'it's not recommended that you do a cardio workout 2 days in a row', so my intention was to use the room w/ the video set up. You select your workout, and you follow it. My understanding was that it was a private room.  I had seen a core workout, and I figured that it was as good a place to start as any. So I was working out in my black yoga pants, and my stretchy tee that seemed long enough until I started bringing my knee up to my elbow, etc.

Halfway through my program, The door opened, and a very lithe woman comes in, sets up about 10 feet from me, and begins doing her own little work out.

Here's the dealio. She's working out and making it look like no sweat. No pun intended.

Meanwhile, I was lying down and jumping up, and doing modified situps, all this other stuff. My shirt was riding up, and when I lifted my legs, my pants legs slid up, and I couldn't remember if my legs had been shaved recently. I knew that my face was beet red. I knew that I was sweaty. I knew that I was expending a lot of energy not grunting like a tennis player. I got so self conscious that I didn't even finish my workout, even though it was winding down to the home stretch.

I went out to the treadmill, and climbed on. I did a brisk walk.

I like the exercise. Mostly what I like is knowing that just a few months ago, I could not have done some of this stuff. Now I can. Surely that's a positive sign.

Tomorrow morning, I meet with the weight trainer, and a weight program will be set up for me that I can alternate w/ my cardio workout, and I figure that I'll sneak in and do that core workout as often as I can, either before or after my other workouts.

Everywhere I look, I see all these physically fit people that remind me just how far I have to go. I am hopeful that I'll encounter some friendly fat folks just embarking on this journey. It would sure make life easier.

2 comments:

Snoskred said...

This post speaks loudly to me. Been here done this.

The important thing is to keep going, one foot in front of the other.

It took time for me to get to a place where I was comfortable, not self conscious and not concerned about what other people thought at the gym.

My time at the gym now is precious time. It is when I can take all the frustrations of the day and channel them towards something useful. I can be alone with my thoughts and my music.

Part of it for me was finding the right clothing. I like to put one of these under my t-shirt - http://www.walmart.com/ip/19501141 - these keep everything where it should be, and they make sure I do not moon anyone by accident. If you get them in the right size they are too tight to ride up.

One of my goals for this year is to do laser leg hair removal. It is not as expensive as it once was and imagine never having to worry about leg hair again, how freeing would that be? :)

A Novel Woman said...

Be proud you're working out. Never mind what others think, especially the little gym bunnies. You're an inspiration. Maybe I'll get up the nerve to join my local club. I mean, no excuses, it's literally right next door. Good on ya!