I've spent most of my life 'settling'. That means trying to make difficult situations work, when they are really not working at all. I don't know why, exactly, but I always have this feeling that I have to make it work, mostly because I have nothing better to replace it with. Part of it is self esteem, I imagine.
Tonight, I am handing in my two week notice at my current job.
I am trusting that there is something out there for me, somewhere. I am trusting in my own ability to find it, trusting that I will recognize it when I see it.
I'm not accustomed to trusting myself. Tonight is a big step for me.