It's been a jumbled up week. I'm trying to catch up from the things that I missed Monday, when I was not in class. We cover so much, and so quickly, that it's easy to get behind. Today, I was supposed to submit my personal and professional goals. My teachers had given me a list of strengths as well as areas that I need to work on. My strengths were listed first: "Compassionate, hard working, reflective, dedicated, driven, very self aware (some times to a fault though), great with patients!" My weaknesses were also laid out: I'm not good at conflict resolution, much preferring to back out of the conflict. (I suppose that is from years of conflict with NO resolution.) Another weakness was my ability to work with difficult people. (I back away from them to avoid the conflicts that I don't know how to resolve, I suppose.) It was also suggested that I begin to work on my self esteem issues.
I was headed to the library, deep in thought. It is one thing to know your faults, another thing altogether to figure out how to fix these things. I walked past an Asian woman and smiled in a distracted sort of way. Suddenly, she called my name. I turned, confused. "You are Debby ______?" she asked. She remembered me from a tour while I was at the Conservation District. She worked with Tim for a short while at a factory. She introduced herself to me, and then said the most amazing thing. In her heavily accented English, she said, "I am here to learn to write better English. I love your articles. I want to learn to write like you do."
That meeting was darned good for my self esteem.
Late Edit: You know what else is good for my self esteem? Just sitting down with my books. I worked on muscles for several hours tonight, memorizing and making notes, downloading diagrams. I don't feel nearly as hopeless as I did for most of the week.