Thursday, September 22, 2011

Today I rejoiced

Kind of an astounding day today, and I am not sure what to make of it. There's been a lot going on, a lot of things that you all don't know of, lots of things that I've been pondering in my own heart. Today, many things were set to rest in that heart of mine, and I don't know how to explain that right now, not without sounding like a complete lunatic. It is enough to say that driving today, my heart was set to rest, and I feel as if I can step out in confidence to deal with the events of the next few days, and I thank God for that one.

My kids will be home tomorrow night for their grandmother's funeral on Saturday. Dylan gets in at four, no word yet from Cara. Brianna and Buddy are moving into their own place this weekend, so that is a good thing, although it makes things a bit more hectic.

I'm looking forward to having my kids home. It gives us a chance to celebrate Brianna's 30th birthday, which was actually September 18th, but we thought it would be more special to celebrate it when everyone was home. Marking the end of a life, celebrating a life unfolding. It's all kind of jarring in a way, but it's also the way of life, I guess. My mother's 9th great grandchild was born the day after her death. 'Life's a dance you learn as you go.' We're dancing along with things as best we can.

I suppose that the big news is that I drove to Erie for the results of my PET scan. No cancer. They also said it is about this time when they begin to cautiously use the word 'cure'. They did comment that I need to seek followup because I have, of all things, an aortic aneurism. It shocked me to hear that, because my mother had one for years. Since hers never grew or changed, I guess that I was pretty calm about that news. It was more like 'Huh. Now that's ironic.' I'm not worried about that in the least. I am very glad for the cancer free diagnosis.

I walked out of there in shock, I imagine. I called Tim to let him know, because I knew he was anxious to know, and I called my sister and left the news on her answering machine. I began the drive home not feeling much of anything at all. But as the miles clicked by, as I drove past fields ablaze with colors, purple asters, golden rod, white wreath asters, the impact of that news finally began to hit me. I'd worried about wasting money on my schooling...I can stop worrying about that. All those dreams that I was afraid to dream, well, heck, the world's wide open to me now. I can dream what I want. I can plan a trip to Australia if I want to, because I've got wine glasses to deliver! Sounds stupid, doesn't it, that I stopped dreaming for a time, but I did. Just like autumn was bursting into full color all around me, I felt like my life was bursting into full color all inside me.

I stopped on the way home, and I leapt from my car to tell Mary the news, and we stood there, hugging each other. We've been friends forever, since we were children, and just the thought that we will be there for each other in our golden years made me gladder than I can say.

Today, I rejoice.


BUSH BABE said...

Oh Debby... words cannot express the relief and joy I feel.

Wonderful, wonderful news. (But do as the specialists said and get that other thing checked out, okay?)

I have the chardy on ice. BYO glasses and Tim.


BUSH BABE said...

Oh Debby... words cannot express the relief and joy I feel.

Wonderful, wonderful news. (But do as the specialists said and get that other thing checked out, okay?)

I have the chardy on ice. BYO glasses and Tim.


Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

What a wonderful post. I agree with Bush Babe. DavidM

Scotty said...

That's great news, Debby, and if you manage to get over my way, I'll treat you guys to dinner.

Happy belated birthday to Cara as well.


Kelly said...

This is SO good to hear!!! Booyah!! (did I spell that correctly?)

(((happy hugs)))

Bob said...

I cry a lot these days. I'm crying now. Good tears.

If Australia has to wait a year or so, maybe you can come to Tennessee sooner.

Great, great news. You deserve all the good you get.

Mikey said...

Oh Debby, that's SUCH good news!!! I'm so happy for you!!! Inside, I'm doing a big happy dance for you, and Tim too. I imagine it's huge for him too. Ahhh girl, we love you so much!!!

Jayne said...

That is fantastic news, I am so happy and glas for you!!!
(((hugs))) xxxxxxxxxxx

Mary Paddock said...

Very good news, Deb. Congrats!

Anonymous said...

Hurray for the good news! God's not done with you yet. Just think of all the people you're going to help in your work. And with an empathy you gained from all this! God bless you. Onward and upward! Love, Bob and Judy

Reb said...

Wonderful news! I've had two friends in the past couple of months need to have bilateral mastectomies. It does my heart good in so many ways to hear your good new :)
Please get your AA checked out. They can change in a matter of seconds.

A Novel Woman said...

Hurrah hurrah!! Great news!

•´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Trish.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• said...

Debby , I had to stop by and say hooray for the news of your PET scan, what a blessing indeed to get that all clear.

quid said...

Debby... catching up with you. All I have to say is:


I'm so glad.


PaintedPromise said...

i am thrilled beyond words to read t his... i am only sorry that it has taken me so long to be able to catch up... i could have been happy about it weeks ago! my own life has been swamped and my own blog sadly neglected :(