It's been a rough couple months here. Lots of things going on. It's been wonderful. It's been stressful. It's been busy. It's been just a trifle chaotic at times. When life gets rough, the last thing that you expect to happen is to hit a rough patch in your marriage. I guess that because Tim and I disagree so rarely, it comes as a double shock to me. We were walking along fine, and then suddenly, we hit a slippery place, and arms flailing, we sought to save ourselves. We've been in the throes of this for some time now. It peaked a couple weeks ago.
I remember once reading, (I think) over at Redlefty's blog, and we talked about how in any marriage, there's 'a line that shall not be crossed'. And because we love the other, we do not cross that. We do not want to run the risk of those terrible consequences. Redlefty also commented that as the years go by, that line gets pushed back, further and further. The love grows so deep that there is very little that will bring you up to that line. That's how it is with Tim and I. I pretty much figured we had an indestructable marriage. Faulty thinking, I guess, because *wham* we were upon that line. There was no shouting. There were no accusations. There was just a quiet, "Tim, I can't do this again," and his answer came back. "I know. And you shouldn't." And that's where it stayed for a while. And then slowly, we began to edge back from that line.
Things are not perfect. Hard times are not fun. Yesterday was Tim's birthday, and I gave him a card. I wrote how much I loved him. I needed to say that. I believe he needed to hear it. I fixed him a steak dinner with mushrooms and potatoes and broccoli salad. His son came over. It was a quiet celebration. Tim has a job interview on Friday. It's a good job. One that will, once again, provide us with benefits (after he's worked there three months), so we have our fingers crossed.
Life's funny like that, isn't it? You slog through the hard times, you rejoice in the good times, and somehow, some way, you find a way to keep on keeping on. I guess what I've learned is that you cannot take anything for granted. Everything, and I do mean everything is subject to change. You can only do your best to keep up with those changes.