Last night, I lay in bed wide awake wondering how long I can keep juggling everything. For some reason, it just occurred to me that I was not going to be able to do this. Just popped into my head. I began to worry. I got afraid. I tossed and turned from 1:30 until 4:00, and then fell asleep with strange and bothersome dreams. Then I got up and went to work at the new job. First days are always stressful. The manager is quite laid back and laughed at my nervousness. Now I'm done with work, and I should be taking a nap...but I have school in a couple hours and I'm afraid that if I fall asleep I'll end up sleeping right through it. I imagine that self doubt is normal, but for whatever reason, I find myself thinking that I am in over my head. I'm so stinking tired I really think that I'll sleep like a rock tonight. Which is good. I hit the floor running tomorrow. I've got a psychology test. I've got a meeting with my advisor. Summer classes to be scheduled, and the fall classes after that.
*deep cleansing breaths*
I think that I will be able to relax a little tomorrow night. Unless that is the night we end up working on wedding centerpieces.
I really do not believe that I have ever been so busy in my life.