Friday, December 11, 2009

Getting Old

You know, it's getting pretty old. Tim got laid off again today. Now we're both unemployed. Another blow? I found out that the job I'd really been hoping for, that I really, really wanted, well. I blew that. I dropped some paperwork off from the unemployment agency. I was hopeful that it would make me more employable, and so I took the paperwork to her. I guess I screwed up, but I don't understand it, really. Unemployed people are advised to follow up, to show that you are interested, motivated. I received a lovely Christmas card, with an awful letter from a relative. She's still plenty mad, and it's all my fault. Furthermore, she feels 'so very sorry for me'. Two pages (front and back)of spew and blame.

Sometimes the scale tips. It is depressing. I try very hard to stay optimistic and cheerful. I try to be faithfilled, but today sucked, and I cried. I prayed out loud, "God, I'm really not sure how much more of this I can stand. I don't even know what to do anymore."

Tim brought in the mail tonight. I received word that a bank is considering my resume. I received a another lovely Christmas card with another letter in it. The letter began with, 'you, Debby, are one of the nicest people that I am blessed to know.'

I read somewhere, 'If life knocks you down 99 times, you must stand up 100 times.'

Today, God heard me. Today, I stood up once again. Tomorrow will be a better day.

19 comments:

Scotty said...

Good for you, Debby - what's that old saying? When life serves you lemons, learn to make lemonade - chin up.

:-)

A Novel Woman said...

I'm sorry to hear about Tim. That just plain sucks.

I'm sorry the person who should have hired you was too blind to see the woman standing in front of her was a woman of value. Don't be mortified. She got it wrong. Be relieved you won't be spending your days working for her on a full time basis. You'll find employment elsewhere, with someone who truly appreciates your intelligence and your hard work and your confidence.

I'm sorry your relative is making the classic move called "projecting". There is nothing you can do to change that other than letting those hurtful comments slide off your back. Feel sorry for someone who is so full of bitterness. It's a terrible, lonely way to go through life.

Please know that you are one of the few people who inspires me, each and every day. And that ain't no small nothing.

Pam

Karen said...

Oh, Debby, I was so sorry to hear about the job and the nasty letter from your relative. Wish I had some wonderful words to help cheer you up. But please remember that God hears your prayers - every single one of them - and He is ultimately in control of your life, not the people who mistreat you. It's not easy, I know, but try to rest on the truth that you have little control over most circumstances or in the way you're treated, but you do have control in the way you respond. You have the strength and determination, as well as the grace, to see beyond such annoyances.

I'll keep you in my prayers that the job that is just perfect for you will soon materialize! It's out there - just try to be patient and wait until God's ready to show it to you! :)

BUSH BABE said...

Hang in Deb... a little quote from The Man From Snowy River (with some minor liberties) for you:

She was hard and tough and wiry
Just the sort that won't say die
There was courage in her quick, impatient tread.
And she wore the bnadge of gameness in her bright and fiery eye
And the proud and lofy carriage of her head.

You may not be a brumby Deb. But you sure remind me of one...

Hugs
BB

Karen said...

P.S. Debby, if I were you, I'd toss the first letter and tape the second one to my refrigerator, where I could read it several time a day!

Lorilei said...

Debby,
Yes, tomorrow will be a better day.

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.
Emily Dickinson

WhiteStone said...

Awww, Debby, Feeling the pain for you. Huge hug from Iowa.

Kelly said...

I'm sorry for your rough day.

I care about you.

Bob said...

So sorry about this latest wrinkle, Debby. Praying for you.

Bill of Wasilla said...

Debby - What a tough situation. I am glad that, at the end of the day, you found something positive. Being a self-employed freelancer, I am never out of a job or work, but I sure as hell know all too well what it is like to be out of income - and to have your spouse lose h/er/is job, too.

It's true, though, that when it seems hopeless, something can just pop out of nowhere and save the day.

So I am hoping for you.

Paula said...

Hey Debby - I am sorry you didn't get the job - I am sure it wasn't anything that you did or didn't do. So many times there is already a name up against a vacancy - 'cos someone has been applied internally or has been doing it on a temporary basis. As for the letters - you know which one you need to keep and which one needs screwing up and putting in the bin.

I hope today is a better day for you - it is so ununusual and sad to hear you so low - I am sure it will be. Do something that you enjoy doing - go for a walk - bake - dance around the kitchen! Take care.

Paula x

steviewren said...

You asked and God answered. Priceless.

Debbie, I can understand your feelings. I also understand standing back up again. You are a person of real character...never forget that.

Anonymous said...

Debby,

I've had many days like that too. One bad thing after another and then a bright spot. It's there to remind me that He is still listening. He cares as do we all. Hugs from TN.

Kerry Osborne

quid said...

Rotten.

Look at the earlier post and give me your zip code. I'm not sure where you are, but my company may have operations close.

quid

jeanie said...

Deb - I am glad god is giving you a little teflon coating - as others have said, their loss.

I hope Tim is able to bounce as well.

Lydia said...

I had a day like that, too. I guess it is going around!

Well, Scotty, I have to amend your idea of the lemons. I think when someone sends you a Christmas letter full of lemons, you should just wrap the letter of that old (choose your adjective) in a lemon and hit her with it right between the eyes.

If I were a better person, I would not be thinking this way. I'm not a better person....

At any rate, I hope you and Tim find new jobs quickly. Money isn't everything, but it sure does calm the nerves.

Anonymous said...

Sunday Night

Make use of the things around you.
This light rain
outside the window, for one.
This cigarette between my fingers,
these feet on the couch.
The faint sound of rock-and-roll,
the red Ferrari in my head.
The woman bumping
drunkenly around in the kitchen . . .
put it all in,
make use.

--Ray Carver

All, the good and the bad, is fodder for the
writing - the articles, essays, memoirs, etc.

Take care,
DavidM

PaintedPromise said...

hugs to you! life sucks around here too right now... i'm getting a little impatient waiting for the blessings that are coming. but i still have faith that they ARE coming. i think they might have taken a wrong turn though...

What was done said...

Getting old is only in our mind.
Age never prevented people from doing things:
http://www.whatwasdone.com/