Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Oy.

I got the call. Area of activity in the shoulder, in the breast, and in the lung. I thought I would feel much better once I found out.

Actually, I don't.

(Area of activity = abnormal cell growth. Most likely culprit? Cancer.)

Cancer sucks.

40 comments:

A Novel Woman said...

What exactly does "area of activity" mean?

I'm so, so, so sorry it wasn't better news. I've been waiting and checking your blog all afternoon.

Did they also say what the next steps are?

I'm guessing you don't use a lot of profanity, but there are a few choice words rocketing around in my head right now....

Kelly said...

I'm a little confused with the "area of activity", too.

Yes...next step?

Still praying.

PaintedPromise said...

"area of activity"? i'm clueless... but i have a feeling it isn't good. i'm so sorry Deb! you are and will remain in my prayers... {{{hugs}}}

Mary Paddock said...

I've been checking in regularly since yesterday. So sorry Debby. I've been praying/hoping it was good news.

Bush Babe said...

Shit. *Deep breath* And buggar.
Right. What now?
{hugs}
BB

Mrs. Spit said...

aww shit. This is not so good.

What's next?

(((((Debbie and Hubby)))))))

Kayleigh said...

Damn, was so hoping it was a big fat nothing. Of course you don't feel better knowing this, no one would.

It will take a while, but you will feel better, you will figure out what to do next and take those steps...doing something will make you feel better. Eventually. This journey sucks but it's better than going nowhere.

I'm wishing you comfort and strength....lots of both.

heather said...

So sorry to hear this.

Beth said...

No way! That is awful news. How could that happen while you were going through treatment? What are the next steps now?

I'm just so sorry to hear this, it's just not right.

Amy said...

F*&K

Scotty said...

I'll add my cuss words to the list too - damn.

A Novel Woman said...

Fnck cancer. Kick it to the curb and beat it senseless.

I'm sorry...there are no words, really.

Anonymous said...

Deb you are so right - cancer sucks, so what now dear friend? Right now you are probably feeling totally flattened and we all send you our love, prayers and hope. Whatever we can do, we will and never give up dear Deb. Love and hugs Barb

Daria said...

I'm so sorry ...

Pam said...

Oh man, Debs. That really does suck! You remain in my prayers!!

Sending you a HUGE cyber (((((HUG))))! And some cyber chocolate!

Hal Johnson said...

Dammit.

Hold on to you.

Anonymous said...

Hi, just thinking of you and your family. julie

Caroline said...

Well, at least you didn't have to wait longer for the results. But I am sorry to hear it wasn't as good as you had hoped for. But before you put the cart before the horse here, when do you see the doctor so he can put this into perspective and give you a plan? Cancer basically sucks. Its the roller coaster ride from hell and we are all stuck on it. I'm sending all sorts of good thoughts to you.

Pencil Writer said...

For some reason I just thought of a verse of a hymn I learned and loved as a child: "Just a closer walk with Thee..." He is there. He will guide and bless you through this continuing trial. Many prayers are with you.

Laura Jane said...

Aww, CRAP!

Bugger!

Damn!

Roll up for the nest rollercoaster ride.

Thinkin of you and Tim

(shit, shit, shit)

RedWifey said...

I am so sorry, Debby. Sending hugs your way!

Redlefty said...

You are never alone, sweet lady. Not for a second.

JJ said...

I'm so sorry.

Cancer sucks

Lydia said...

Well this really stinks, but you know, I'm reading everyone's comments, and I know you are really loved. Loved by many.

Mikey said...

Oh God. I'm so very sorry to hear this. Dammit all to hell. What happens now?

Nana Trish is Living the Dream said...

I am still praying. you are special and many are thinking of you.

Alison said...

Healing thoughts and prayers to you and your family, Deb.
Time to bring out the butt kicking boots again.

Fe said...

Hi Debby, I haven't been here before, but just wanted to send you cyber-love and support from a fellow breast-cancer survivor.

steviewren said...

Well....what's the next step. We're here with you. Remember, you might have gotten knocked down but we're all here to pull you up, hold you up if you need it. Hugs and prayers!

PaintedPromise said...

the father of the pastor of our church has done some wondrous things with prayer... tonight i asked him to pray for you and he immediately grabbed my hand and started up! we are gathering the prayer warriors for you Deb! thanks for clarifying, i hate the news for your sake but i understand better now than the initial phrasing... thanks for explaining. and keep your chin up... you CAN beat this!!!!!

corymbia said...

Not what you wanted to hear and not what I wanted to read. Will continue to keep you in my prayers.

Bush Babe said...

PS WHAT PP said... YOU CAN BEAT THIS!!!!

rhubarbwhine said...

Awwww crap.

crappittycrappittycrapcrap.

I'am so sorry. Hugs, wish I had better words.

New Mary said...

I'm in total shock about your news. I have a fury building inside me that is about to become unleashed. (They have some "explain'in to do Lucy") I am directing the energy of this fury towards all the support I can give to you. I know you Deb...You are very strong, and though we may wimper to each other, you will face this with all the grace, strength and guns blazing to fight this.

Roland said...

I'm so sorry. I say you're in my thoughts and prayers a lot, because you are. I don't have anything more supportive to say than that, but know that I'm thinking and praying. A lot.

Debby said...

Thanks you everyone. It'll be okay. However it turns out will be the way that it is meant to be. I'm a little more focused today. I'm assembling the troops, and heading off to battle.

A-teeeeeeeeeeeen-shun!

*Sound of my little Army marching along with me*

Thanks folks, thanks a lot.

d/iowa said...

your news pisses me off and wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers.

quid said...

Oh. No.

"Previously, it has taken you weeks, months, or years to discover the meaning of an experience. Now it's instantaneous." ~Melissa Bank

I was instantaneously saddened. More fight will be necessary. I will "be there" with you, Deb. Every step.

quid

Bob said...

Been out a few days and just catching up. Go read Kelly's most recent post (the quote from her prayer journal). My eyes are blurred from reading this but my prayers remain strong. Blessings and prayers; prayers and blessings, good friend.

Reb said...

I am so sorry the results weren't what we were all hoping for you :( Please feel all of the love and prayers directed your way. Healing is a mystery. I'm a nurse and sometimes we see healing that we least expected. I know that there is a power stronger than our medicine.
Reb