Monday, July 13, 2009

Deja Vu

The surgeon was surprised at the size of the lump. He said it multiple times, as he prodded and came at it from different angles. He did not do a core needle biopsy because he feels that it would be irresponsible to leave a lump of that size in a person with my history. I am scheduled for surgery on Thursday. He says that he 'is concerned'.

Huh. Deja vu all over again.

God.

17 comments:

RedWifey said...

Oh Debby! We're praying!

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you :o)

WhiteStone said...

Ahhh, Debby. I was mistakenly thinking that today was he "result" of the biopsy, not the biopsy itself. You are in our prayers and I have asked my church members to pray with us.

Daria said...

I'm so sorry there is more surgery and worry and stress.

My heart goes out to you ....

Roland said...

I'm so sorry, Debbie. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Kelly said...

Sending you (((hugs))) and praying for a positive end result.

God will give you strength and comfort in whatever lies ahead.

Bob said...

More hugs. More blessings. More prayers.

And ditto what Kelly said.

Bush Babe said...

Damn and blast it all. And bugger too. And lots of other flamin' swear words I cannot put up here... OK. Good side? It'll be out. You will know for sure that (A) is was NOTHING to worry about, or that (B) you didn't stuff around with it. I am going for A. With all my might!
:-)
Hugs
BB

Amy said...

sh*t. it could still be something benign. what the hell is up with this cancer crap? why is this disease so pervasive? i want it eradicated. im going to also go with A.

Anonymous said...

I am sister of Mark Wilson (he knows you from Blair) I've known your husband nearly from his birth. I live in Texas and have followed you for some time. I just want you to know prayers are going up from Texas for you, Tim, and your kids. God has not brought you this far to leave you, so hang in there. "If God has brought you to it, He'll bring you through it."

Caroline said...

Damn. Why do the doctors say things like they are 'concerned'? Hello! Doesn't he get how that makes you feel? Welcome to the 'because of your history we need to really check that out' life. Good luck to you!

quid said...

As much as I worry for you, I think the decision to have surgery quickly was a good one. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers this week, Debby.

quid

Debby said...

Actually, Caroline, the 'I am concerned' made me feel better. The oncologist had been so off hand about it, and I still get a little embarrassed about having to advocate for myself. With Dr. M, I did not need to. He was as concerned as I was. I imagine that all patients are different, but I am really kind of straight forward person, and I want my information straight forward as well. The other thing? Even if he hadn't have said he was concerned, I still would have been. This is a big lump. I'd be a liar if I said that I wasn't feeling just a little sick about it all.

steviewren said...

Debby, I'm glad your surgeon was so straight forward with you. I feel better knowing everything myself. This way you will also be more likely to trust his opinions when you know he won't namby-pamby around the truth.

I hope the recovery period from the surgery won't take long.

jeanie said...

Darn - I had a dream last night you were having a cuppa with me and laughing about how it wasn't anything to worry about and all the doctor said was that you were smart to check but it was all dandy.

Maybe the having you at my kitchen table should have alerted me to the fact it was a dream.

Still - here is hoping that the dream comes true...

Roxanne said...

I am praying for you Deb. My friends are praying for you. Sending healing hugs your way!!

A Novel Woman said...

Ah, sh!te. I came back from the cottage just to check on house, kids and emails and I saw this. Fingers (toes, and eyes) crossed it will be nothing, and if it IS something, then it's swiftly dealt with.

I'm with Bush Babe. I've got lots of things to say about that darn C-word and none of them family friendly.