Friday, March 13, 2009

Routine

Here I sit with my morning cup. I've been out already, to radiation and back home. It's becoming part of my routine. I head off the hill, whisk in the cancer center, gown up and go to the waiting room. I've been getting to know the gentleman whose appointment is after mine. He comes in, turns the TV to Fox network, and settles in with his newspaper. He's interesting, and a talker, like me. He's a sign painter, lives in a small town about 45 minutes from here.

I've also gotten acquainted with the radiation staff. Ironically, one of them is a girl who grew up down the road from me. For years, the kids from her family were the only playmates that my brother and sisters and I had. I can remember little about her because she was so much younger than the rest of us. We chat too, as we go through what has become, after three days, a practiced routine. I'm lined up, the radiation is administered in four jolts, and then, just that quickly, it is done, and I am headed down the hall to get dressed again. I wave goodbye and leave the cancer center to get on with my day. It is interesting to me how quickly a new (and intimidating) procedure just simply became part of my life, part of my 'rut'.

30 comments:

Redlefty said...

No comments allowed on the last post, huh? This comment is for that one anyway:

Hi there! Nice to see you!

Debby said...

*sigh*

Kelly said...

Well, I agree with Redlefty's comment. It IS nice to "see" you here!!

Also glad that you are settling in to this final stage of treatment. It will all be ancient history before you know it!

teri said...

About your last post, the one of you. True beauty is God given and comes from the inside.

Caroline said...

I think you are very brave with your last post. I wouldn't look at myself in the mirror when I had no hair and there is not a single picture of me like that on this planet. One year out from radiation, I am still happy to have hair but wish it was long enough to do something with!! Bernie in jail definitely made my day! Happy Friday the 13th.

M+B said...

Hopefully this 'rut' will be well and truly over very soon.

On the post we're not supposed to comment on... What a courageous post. As they say, a picture speaks a thousand words, the inner beauty is shining out, along with bravery and strength whether you see it or not.

Anonymous said...

Well Lady, I think you are just beautiful,with or without hair.I sat at the cancer center last year with my husband and watched all the bald ladies and gentlemen come and go and I was amazed at how good they looked with their caps or scarfs or perky bonnets on. Some had wigs that I would never have guessed was a wig if they had not told me so. As bad as my hair looked at 8 AM I wished I had one of those wigs myself. My husband also lost his hair. He had several caps he wore to keep his head warm.but I loved him with or without hair. The hair will grow back. His was starting to come back when he passed away on new years eve. You see, he had lung cancer,both lungs, and it was stage 4 when it was discovered.He tried to gain extra time by taking chemo,but it just wasn't in the cards for him.You will beat this thing and be cancer free. I am sure of it.And don't ever be ashamed of your looks, you are beautiful inside and out. Best wishes. Doris

Mary Paddock said...

Hi ya Deb. Hair or now hair--you're cute.

How many more radiation sessions do you have left?

Mikey said...

I think you look beautiful with no hair! I'm glad you took the picture too, next year I want to see a before and after, ok? :) Cause you are going to make this!! You have to come out and ride some horses out here in the desert with me. I'm holding you to it.

Debby said...

27, Mary. But who's counting?

Oh, yeah. I am...

Reddunappy said...

There is a wonderful lady on our channel 2 news KATU Portland OR, she has been back at work and has chronicaled her fight with breast cancer this past year, she was doing broadcasts with no hair! Her name is Shelly Bailey Shaw. I noticed this last week that she ditched her wig, she has been a couroageus woman.(I think her story is on their website)

And so have you.

Reddunappy said...

LOL I love spell checker LOL

Debby said...

Welcome, Doris. I am sorry to hear that you lost your husband. Sometimes it seems to me like it is easier to actually deal with cancer than it is to be left behind when a loved one dies of it. Thanks for commenting.

Karen said...

Debby,
You look pretty good with no hair, I love how you have your head tilted to the same side as you do in your other picture. Same amazing woman.

Hal Johnson said...

I hope those 27 treatments go smoothly as silk.

And I agree, it WAS nice to see you, hair or no hair.

Nah nah nah nah nah.

Sorry.

jeanie said...

I am not going to say anything about the previous post (except that it was wonderful) but I am so amazed at how resilient you are, building this necessary step of radiation into your routine. Is it every day?

So looking forward to that day in April when you get to have a NEW routine.

Scotty said...

Did you know that the only difference between a rut and a groove is neither the width nor the depth but the amount of time we allow ourselves to spend in either.

And I concur with others; that is a great shot of you. The first thing I noticed was your eyes; they tell a story (and they're nice eyes I hasten to add). Eyes are often the best book you can read - everything else is just the cover and binding, sometimes fresh and new, other times frayed and dog-eared, and I rarely look at covers anyway...

:-)

Debby said...

Hal, Hal, Hal! Did you ask Rhonda whether you were grown up or not?

Jeanie, every day. Every single day except for Saturday and Sunday.

Scotty - Thank you. You see what I cannnot.

Karen - are you back from Mexico and the Keys?

Yaya said...

Wow, I cannot even imagine.

Karen said...

Yup, I'm back and will start blogging about my travels tomarrow. Today's post was dedicated to celebrating #1 not being a teenager anymore.

David said...

Hi Deb,
Your post is a reflection of your Blog’s title “Life’s Funny Like that” because despite life being mainly “routine” we still want to live life as long as we can. And when one survives a brush with death,one appreciates the routines and ruts as much as the high points, is more alive because of the experience.

DavidM
Hello, Bedford Falls! Merry Christmas! Merry Christmas, movie house! Merry Christmas, Emporium! Merry Christmas, you wonderful old Building and Loan! Hey! Merry Christmas, Mr. Potter!"

kelly said...

I'm sorry you are going through cancer. I know that sounds trite, especially since I am a stranger. But...it's true.

As for your last post, I think it was bold, and lovely to put a face with these words.

Hal Johnson said...

"Did you ask Rhonda whether you were grown up or not?" Rhonda often calls Dylan 'n me "my boys," but I'm just sure that's no reflection on her view of my maturity.

Gosh, it's hard to type with your fingers crossed.

rhubarbwhine said...

New routine 'embraced' at the 'joy' of having no more chemo, perhaps?

steviewren said...

Debby, there is difference between both pictures I've seen of you except the length of your hair. You have the same expression in both. And btw, you aren't bald in the new picture because I can see your 1/4 inch hair coming in.

Showing us a picture of yourself is just another layer of the transparency you've always practiced on this blog. You let us see you because you believe that being real is important. Deb, you are one real beautiful girl!

MuseSwings said...

I see your hair! How cool is that! It will be flapping around your shoulders again in no time!!!

I have an award for you on today's post - stop by!

Dave said...

Hi again Debbie. Haven't been on for a few days. Glad you are taking your treatment as just another thing in your day. Best wishes. - Dave

Lavinia said...

Well Debby, I will chime in with the others that it was brave of you to post that pic, and also say that your outer appearance does not change who you are inside...the *real* you. And after all, babies are bald and there ain't nothing cuter than babies!~

PaintedPromise said...

here's me wondering why the heck NO ONE posted anything about your picture and feeling bad that i was out of town for a long weekend and didn't see your post until now... so i try to comment and !!!!!! now i understand. i also understand why there are so many comments on the NEXT entry lol, that was my first thought as well... so here i am. better late than never...

Deb. You. Are. Seriously. Gorgeous! i know you don't wish it on anyone but i PROMISE you that if i am ever walking in your shoes, i will post me too!

kpaeck said...

hair or no hair you are still my aunt, still Debby and I love you. I have to apologize I was intending to start reading your blog everyday and as usual the hussle, bussle, and unexpected turns of life has gotten in the way again. I know that is no excuse, but really I am now ready to do some reading. I hope that everything is going ok and if you need anything please know that you can call me. I have something that I got for you when you first found out that you had cancer and I just found it, so much for the safe place that I would remember. As I say most days, I would lose my head if it wasnt attached. Anyways I have to get that to you sometime! Have a good weekend! Hugs to you!