Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Sleep

I shower carefully, 'do' my hair, remove the five earrings from my ears. I do not put on make up. I do not get my morning coffee. I do not get breakfast. I wonder if Elaine will be working at one day surgery again. She's very nice. The one thing that I know is that I will sleep this morning, and I am glad for that. I am so tired. I don't need the pain killers. (This high threshold of pain is coming in handy, friends.) I need sleep. I'm not afraid, but goodness, there are so many thoughts that need to be thunk whenever I lie down. They come crowding into my mind, all pushing to go to the front. Today, I've decided that I will ask for something to help me sleep. I really believe if I could sleep at night, it would bring the rest of the situation into perspective. So I'm going to tell them what I need, and I won't worry about looking like a big baby.

15 comments:

Mary said...

Debby, from one survivor to another, you can do this. You have cancer but it doesn't have you. Laughing is good. Highly recommended. Any comedy with Tom Hanks will suffice, especially "The Money Pit". Pedicures with bright red polish are amazingly restorative. Candy. Wine. In quantities. Let people help you. They want to and it's your "duty" to let them. (Hard to do for someone who is the givee to now be the giver, but you can do it!) I'm eight years out from my surgery/chemo/radiation and all has been well, with God's grace. If I can be of any help, I'm here. It's the "duty" of survivors to get each other through this hell. Sounds like you have lots of help already. God bless you. I'll be praying for you.
Mary (sister of Cynthia, "MuseSwings" blogger)

Debbie said...

You ask them for whatever you need, Debs. Sleep is good.

Thinking of you...

Bush Babe (of Granite Glen) said...

Sleep is so vital to healing. I recall when Dash was so tiny, with a million tubes coming out of his poor little body, and he slept on and on. I couldn't believe it was possible for him to relax enough, and a nurse I shared this thought with said something I will never forget. She said:

Children are the most amazing healers. They don't know to make a big deal out of something that might or might not happen in the future. They accept what is happening now and let their bodies dictate responses. And they heal far better than adults because of it.

So time to find your inner child, and ask for whatever you need.

And sleep, dear Deb. Less thinking, more sleeping.
:-)
BB

Pencil Writer said...

Sleep, rest, is NOT over rated. Have sweet dreams.

Mikey said...

There's no shame in taking painkillers or sleep aids, woman! Take them. Enjoy! You'll need to sleep to be able to fight this, so go ahead. Don't feel bad one bit.

MuseSwings said...

Debby - I know you have a few things goin' on, but when you get a chance, stop on by. I have a award for you. I had planned on presenting it even before you took that fateful shower. I see my sissy Mary has left a comment for you! She's quite the expert at what is going on in your life.

steviewren said...

Once the brain turns on it's hard to turn it off again. Take the sleeping pills. It might be a long time before you can sleep without thinking again. After my divorce it took me years to be able to sleep longer than 3 or 4 hours a night. I should have been as smart as you and asked for help.

soulbrush said...

i came to visit via cynthia's blog and am overwhelmed by your courage and indomitable spirit, we don't know each other but my good wishes go out to you right now.

jeanie said...

I know, from my second hand brushes with mental illness, that the most identifiable sign of oncoming episodes was the inability to sleep.

We receive so much from medical miracles to help us through in the modern world, I think a little sleep miracle is not too much to ask.

Cara said...

Ma, you're grouchy as hell when you don't sleep... Take the pills! ;] j/k. Check your email, btw. Love you!

Lavinia said...

Hi Debby, just checking in to say hi, sending positive thoughts your way, and hope you are coping as well as you can!

Debby said...

Mary - welcome, thanks for the 'voice of experience'. It does help. Teri - if you're still out there, I responded to your e-mail, but don't know if it 'went'. I appreciate your words as well.

Everyone else - Sleep is good. It helped a lot. Today much better day.

Cara - Tu boca! Ay!

Redlefty said...

Yo tengo queso en mis pantalones? Holy guacamole en el autobus!

As you can tell, I'm fluent. It's like a second language.

Night night.

Debby said...

LOL all over the dang place, Redlefty.

nanatrish said...

I will be praying for you. I agree with the others. Getting the help from the doctor for sleep is a great idea. Rest is such a good thing. You are strong and thank you for sharing with us.