Saturday, September 6, 2008

I've been thinking...

I've been thinking that,
maybe,
it is time for me to begin again.

7 comments:

Bush Babe (of Granite Glen) said...

Sounds profound... profoundly exciting!!!

rhubarbwhine said...

You can have as many fresh slates as you like. Go for it!

jeanie said...

Deb - don't disappear completely, please?!

Was it something I said?

Debby said...

Jeanie: You're joking, right? I hope so anyways. But yes, in a way it was. You made the comment about 'are you ever going to give yourself credit?' and I've been thinking on it. I've also been thinking on the fact that my life has, of late, become a completely joyless slog. I mean somewhere along the line, I 've got to get things back on track, and I've got to begin now. The situation with my mother, and with my daughter, and my job (which I love, love, love, but am trapped in a situation which I can't stand) and I work my eight hour day, and go help Tim after work (we're starting to put the house back together) and on Saturdays, too. I'm tired of being responsible, and struggling so hard to do the right thing, to say the right thing, only to have it come back and bite me in the ass anyways. So I'm going to be taking a hard look at things. I'm going to begin to set things back to rights. I'm going to begin being joyful again.

Portia said...

That's just life. I can't even count the amount of times I've started over. Sometimes it was a growth stage like graduating from high school, college, getting married,etc. But more often it was the realization that what I was doing was no longer working for my current situation.

It is my hope for you that you find peace as you begin again.

Lavinia said...

Life is full of new beginnings. Your plan to add more joy to your life sounds like a plan to me...

Scotty said...

Here's to a few less frustrations this next time around, Debby. Oh, and less guilt too - I reckon you've suffered a bit of that too, yes?

Maybe it's a guy thing but I've made sure that my kids understand something - that I love them dearly, that I would die for any of them, that I will help them when their back is against the wall - but also that I am entitled to a life too and that they had better think long and hard before encroaching on the tiny bit of 'me' time that I get - some things they need to work through themselves in order to better deal with it next time because I won't always be around to pick up pieces.